Awareness doesn't come and go.
The awareness that is generally understood or alluded to…… is a conceptualized, objectified version of awareness.
When saying, "I am aware of this PC/NoteBook/IPad screen in which I'm seeing some words".......... that is objectified thinking......not the actual being aware.
Saying, "PC/NoteBook/IPad screen..... " infers a quantifiable, objectifiable something……
…. and one apart from that who is providing the labeling (and related conceptualization) "of" it.
Awareness has no "of." .
There is no derivation "from" it.
Awareness is not what is observed out there....... as someone else's awareness.
Nor is it what is inferred about my awareness coming and going (e.g., leaving when I'm asleep or unconscious, and coming back again when I wake up).
Awareness is the basis for any present experiencing.......... and so is never somewhere else.....
... never gone....... never yet-to-be.
The sense of having an individuated existences………… having individual pasts and futures…….…. having individual experiences that are different from other individuals' experience…
… such a sense of….. is constructed moment-to-moment.
Yet apart from that construction ………..there is nothing to it.
The fabrication of individual experiences, communication, memories , the sense of time,
personal reactions to pain and pleasure, to gain and loss.....
.... the sense of an individual locus for interpretation of pain
and pleasure, and a sense of the movement of time
(and with it, the sense of moving in space) .....
.......is allegorized as a dream.
If a dream is understood in relation to being awake… then the dream of being awake is understood in relation to what?
Saying anything as an answer to that question .......automatically becomes dream manifestation.
Desisting from saying anything ……….is the same dream manifestation.
There being none or nothing else other than one-isness.....
....one is the dream manifestation, the fabrication, the construction and the constructing/deconstructing.
And yet, there being no spatial loci other or apart from one-isness…. a needed loci for the dream manifestation to get anchored, hence created or manifested.....
.......there can neither be the speaking of it ........nor the absence of speaking.
Thus one neither moves, nor stays still.
One simply ………….is this awareness…….. that is.
Not going anywhere, not having been anywhere ……… simply manifesting without actually manifesting ...
...whatever is experienced, as the situation of experience/experiencer, observed/observer (indivisibly so)……
….. as a display of what such a pantomime would be like, if the pantomime ever could get to be actually played out.
Which is the intrigue of "awareness" , that it conceptualizes itself as concepts/experiences…
……… while neither being the conceptualization, nor the absence of conceptualization.
One-as-awareness…….. isn't caught by the illusion of the myriad forms of manifestation...
... its infinite possible experiences in time and versions of memory.
Words can't do .........cannot say anything.
Even the word “anything” connotes a meaning… …..words cannot do even that connotation.
Neither words nor anything else that would be not-words ...........has any power to do anything to make one aware.
Simply because there already only is this awareness….. and nothing that ever divided it from itself.
Recognizing as what it is…… is also recognizing that a sense of body-mind identification happens..
... and that getting as -if..... "caught"... by the sense of existing in time…….. “happens”.
At the same time, (without the connotation of an instant in time) … .thus in the same instant of the recognition as what is…
… the recognition that no identification has ever happened…..
.....that in any happening, nothing has happened.
In that very instant……..the recognition that with no impediment ever arising(happening)… .. nothing needs to be cleared(happening).
Simply put, happenings never happened.
And not-happening also does not happen.
Since the utterance in words of the above assertion is also a happening, in the very utterance,
.....(in any utterance) ......nothing ever got said.
Hence the muttering …….“The Buddha spoke for four decades and not a single sound escaped his lips”.
Footprints reaching the shore line……as the limits of thought…
.… where even the thought of "limits", or the thought of something as "thought"....
.....can neither be said to be present or absent..... ..even the alluding to something as “awareness”........
...... the very alluding is neither present nor absent.
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