Ishq'allah mahbud lillah....
At the same time.
All talk of surrender is like pinching brown sugar
from a brown sugar image of Lord Ganesa
and offering it as naivedya [food offering]
to the same Lord Ganesa.
You say you offer your body, soul
and all possessions to God.
Were they yours in the first place
that you could offer them?
At best, you can only say,
"I was deluded,
here I offer thee, my very delusion"
The real fana-fillah
is not the intoxication with the Beloved.
It is the apperception, .......
.......which is the end of the delusion,...
.... that apperception, is to happen.