19th May 2003
TJ, M
TJ:
perhaps so... who knows...?
There is knowingness,
........there is no "who" to know.
in any case, let's enjoy life,
love and laughter.
Sure.
But without the
occurrence of apperceiving, .............all enjoyment, all love, all laughter
are only temporary band-aids covering the underlying silent scream of anguish,
of fear, of insecurity.
Invite you to see
whether any of your enjoyment, any of your love any of your laughter, is not a
relational bargain.
In unicity (using a
conceptual term for the purpose of this dialogue), you don't love an
"other".
You ARE the other.
M:
Very good . It is
indeed relational. Conquering that "Fear and Trembling unto Death" is
for me awareness that I am a murderer, regardless my pacifism, I kill the Other
and feel pain for it.
Or may I
suggest.......... violence takes place through "M", as a sentient
responsive instrument, irrespective of whatever are the particular beliefs about
violence, existing in this object, in that moment.
A pacifist may be
eating only roots and berries, but he or she still eats Life.
Life is
"violence" (without any negative connotation), for Life can only exist
by imbibing Life.
On the gates of the
Game Reserve at Serengeti, Tanzania,....... is a small worn out, termite eaten
placard, in which fading etched letters read........"In Serengeti, there is
no malice, nor any remorse".
I see the twisted
ways of subjugation and am an unwilling participant, being born white in the
USA, starving agrarian cultures by means of our agribusness, politics and bombs.
Yet the poor and our religious politicos are too stupid to stop having babies
and to stop the Thirst not by quenching it over and over but by understanding
the the origin of Thirst.
The origin of Thirst
and the expressing of the Thirst, .....whether as subjugation or as freeing from
subjugation, ...........are all nuances of the same Perfection, nuances as the
particular movements in the moment.
The apperception of
this, does not mean you do not oppose subjugation, whatever be your conception
of it.
Or for the matter
,whatever else you are moved to do, in the moment.
What you do, or what
you cease to do, (and their resultant consequences) are once again
"doings" happening through/to "M" as an instrument of
divinity.
In the moment.
Moment to moment to
moment.
It is the Wanting
for Expansionism that is the error.
May I suggest for
your consideration M, there is no "error" in phenomenality.
As phenomenality,
there is only functioning, as such,........
.......in the moment
functioning happens.
And thus can only be
appropriate (to use a term) to the moment in which it happens.
"Inappropriateness",
"wrong", "right", "good", "bad",
"moral", "ethical", "sinful", are all relational
judgements.
Relational
"takes" which have as much to do with the occurring functioning in the
moment, ..................as the crowing of the rooster early morning has to do
with the rising of the sun (which in fact does not rise)
Of course
phenomenality, itself being a conceptual conjecture, ..........any movement
within a conceptual conjecture, ............cannot perforce be anything but
conceptual.
Be it progeny, fame
or fortune that suffocates the Other in this limited physical world.
Sure.
That appears to be
the case, of the world today.
However, why do you
assume that the perpetuation of civilizations is a guaranteed "given"?
Has not humanity
"disappeared" in the past?
As Swami Beyondananda
says "Peace is already the case.Now whether humans are to be around to
enjoy that peace, the jury is still out on that one".
<LOL>
Childless and many
years homeless, this body now lives in peace and security.
Not Wanting has
brought bountiful gifts with no struggle except to understand and overcome
animal instinct.
I did not
"become" IT today by those 700 LSD trips or those 4 years on the
street or those 7 years of meditating "Thou shalt not Want", nor by
other popular yogas.
Yes.
Experiences,
.............whether chemically induced, or environmentally induced or
consequences of meditation, devotion, charity or other "good" doings
or even through the "divine transmissions of grace" by Gurus, Masters,
etc etc etc, .................are "events" in time.
That which appears in
time, will disappear in time.
No experience, no
matter how profound, even Samadhi,........is thus of any worth.
I became IT, simply
because I always was IT, and today I am more mature and Realize IT.
M, I cannot become or
know or realize, ................what I already am, ....can I?
I can only know or
realize, what I am not.
And there being
nothing that I am not, ...........is any knowing ,......... anything more than
concepts, ...............anything more than signatures on flowing waters?
Yes, in a phenomenal
sense, ..........signings on flowing waters........... do occur.
This Universe, this
infinite phenomenality,.............one tiny signature.
In
the very signing, ..........is its erasing.