Let's assume your name is Ravi
and let us see whether an apperception of what is the case is possible.
For that a good place to start is at the beginning, isn't it?
It's a different matter that there is no beginning,
but let's take for the moment, the beginning of Ravi to be,..
when a sperm raced to engage in a hip-hop with a coy ovum, ...
..succeeded .......and hey presto a unique DNA-gene template was formed.
That unique DNA-gene template, was the end-result of the genetic contributions
coming from both the sperm and the ovum and since the sperm and ovum
themselves are the culmination of another hip-hop,
at another point of time and that of another further back in time,......
..........I trust you can see that the body-mind complex, the psycho-somatic 3 D object,
reading this post on his PC screen,.......
........is a culmination of eternity itself, .........expressed as "so".
Now this gene-template which was formed, just like a particular "wave"
appears to be formed out of the Ocean (appears, not real),...........
...this gene-template, through a mysterious intelligence of it's own,
of such mind-boggling proportions,
(can you imagine the unimaginable complexity
that is involved in making your nose to that precise shape it is,
or the color of your eyes, or in the manufacture of that lovely shaped kidneys inside you,
or to run the neurological system which allows you
to read this post and maybe make some sense) ........
............through that mysterious Grace,
the gene-template reaches fruitation
and screaming, yelling it's spewed out.
The Big-Bang, in it's miniature form.
The gene-template, continues to grow psycho-somatically.
And during this nurturance stage, the gene-template continues to be impacted
by conditioning-inputs from the external environ,
which shape it, alter it, amend it, evolve it.
What are these impacting inputs?
Parental dictates from their own conditioning, ....
....prevailing environ in the home, ...
......experiences both in home and outside,
both the "good" ones and the "horrible" ones, .....
.....education or lack of one, .....
....social/religious/spiritual/communal/nation ethos which was prevailing
in the immediate environ in which the nurturing was taking place, ......
....influences by media, friends, accepted icons of authority/trust,..........etc etc etc.
Roght now, the gene-template is getting impacted ,
to form what is the prevailing, intrinsic innate conditioning-in-this-moment.
Now this conditioning-in-the-moment is not something
which is etched in stone, sometime in some Dark Ages.
The arriving input, alters the existing conditioning
AND the fashioned response once again alters the conditioning, in the very process itself.
(You would have definitely had moments, when moved by the situation, something got done through Ravi, which he would have never dreamed to be ever doing in the past)
It's like a dynamic loop.
A Yin-Yang dance.
That is why the term conditioning-in-the-moment,
and not conditioning which connotes something static etchings in Dark Ages stone.
Which is what "runs" the psycho-somatic object.
By "runs it", I don't mean the biological functions which carry on quite irrespective of "you",
but really the way Ravi views the world,
how he creates a mental image of the input that arrives from the world
(i.e. an E mail, or a sexual assault), .....
....and how a response arises TO that self-created image of that input.
Remember Ravi's response is never to the external input per se,
but to Ravi's created image of that input,
both the creating and the responding, "fashioned"
by the conditioning-in-the-moment.
Now, we have been using this convention of a "Ravi",
creating an image, responding etc etc,
as if there is an independent self, apart from the body-mind complex.
There is nothing like "Ravi" in the psycho-somatic apparatus
know by society as "Ravi".
Just a notion, which feels so real, so real,
that it has "real" problems, "real" issues, ....
....it suffers, grieves, gets angry, screams at the injustice of "his" Life.
It is completely hilarious, but till the hilarity has bubbled up, .....
.....it's like a continuous sinking in deep shit.
So how does this notion appear to come about?
What you see around are conditioned responsive psycho-somatic objects,
whether they are labeled "an interesting rock-piece", ......
....."the Petunia Rose", .....
.....or an " orange assed orangutan" .......or a "human".
Psycho-somatic objects with varying attributes.
The real attribute which vary among all the species
is the attribute of sentience, which is the ability
to cognize an "other" separate to yourself
and create a mental image of that "other",..... to be then responded to.
In the objects labeled "humans" sentience is at the relative maximum.
With that relatively maximum sentience,
the human object, has further embedded flavours,
which is the intellect, i.e. the ability to discriminate
between all the cognized "others".
The discrimination of sentience itself,
which is also present to a limited extent in an animal,
which can discriminate between a "friendly/safe" other
and an "other" which poses danger/threat.
In the cognition of the other,
and in the discrimination inter-alia all these "others",
is born the sense of the cognizer-self.
The subject which observes it's objects of cognition.
Thus is the sense of the individual self,
which is nothing but an identification
with a particular biological body-mind object
as a separated object from all other objects.......
.......the identification to the name
which that particular biological body-mind object carries.
(You Ravi do not feed your sister's body-mind apparatus,
when you note hunger pangs in "your" apparatus, do you?.....
....When her boyfriend calls for her by her name, you don't' respond, do you?)
This self, or this identification does not come at birth,
but some time in the first 3 years.
Notice an infant, falling down, will cry "It hurts", not "I am hurt".
The sense of the self, has not yet appeared.
Now in this sense of the separated individual self,
arrives another flavour, ....
...the sense of personal doership.
The sense which is made up of strands like...
-It is me, which thinks, it is me which chooses/discerns/decides.
-It is me, which acts on the decision made.
-It is me, which succeeds with the action towards,...
again a self-conceived objective/goal
and hence me is joyous,
the world is a beautiful expression of God Almighty.
-It is me which fails with the action
opposite that self-conceived objective/goal
and Life/God/everybody sucks.
The concretization of these strands, makes up the "me".
Which remains a notion.
Go to search for the "me",....... to kick it's infernal ass to oblivion,
you will not find it.
But there are feelings of suffering, or elation,
of agonizing, of fearing, of being insecure ,anxiousness.......
......it is these feelings which infer a "me",..... to be suffering such.
Now comes along all these spiritual Gurus who says,
you have to have mindless observation, witness,
don't get attached, etc,
Impacting input--->created image by conditioning-in-the-moment----->
.....is going on, in the moment.
Moment to moment to moment.
Whether you are ruddy "sage"
or a "regular-Joe-at-the-corner-pub"
or a dog peeing on a red coloured hydrant.
Observing this functioning,..
... from behind a cocoon of an agenda of the "me"
(made up by the thousands of "this should happen",
"that should not happen") ......
...is being identified with the functioning.
For obviously with an agenda, you will either be,..
... joyous in the moment and next moment you will be pissed of, .....
....one moment you see Life as a bed of roses,
another moment that same Life is a cesspool filled with sexual deviants.
Sometimes, in a particular moment .....
....all of a sudden, ....
..even this agenda "gets seen"
for what it is.
This seeing is without an agenda,.......
....i.e.. there is no "Oh Shit, the existing agenda is bad,.
..Ravi is such an horrible person for doing this,
thinking this, lusting such,... etc etc....
.... or it is "good", aka I am on a spiritual seeking band-wagon,
I have realized, I have attained,
I am enlightened,
why can't everybody see/acknowledge the surrounding halo, etc etc
Nothing of all that.
Just a gestalt of indifferent observing of the functioning,....
... which is anyway happening
through a psycho-somatic apparatus,
through an instrument
the indifferent observing of the antics of the "me-Ravi",
with that functioning in the moment.
This gestalt of observing,
which obviously a "me" cannot do,
because there is no existing agenda..
....which happens sometimes, in the moment, .........
.......when it is prevailing ...
...moment to moment to moment to moment,....
....is the witnessing gestalt.
Which also witnesses the functioning
and the antics through the various cognized "other-apparatuses"
around it,.... as it does the functioning through "it's" apparatus.
There is no difference between
"one own's" apparatus
and the apparatus of the neighbor.
And a click...............the apperception happens
that it is the SAME impersonal functioning,
which is running all objects, all apparatuses,
whether it is the Milky Way or a struggling ant, ..
......whether it is a rock functioning in stillness,
or the frenzy of the human object labeled "Ravi".
Same, just like the electricity which runs through
a revolving fan,
a heating coil,
the TV set,
the electric vibrator.
The same animating energy-in-vibration,
all these so uniquely different biological apparatuses.
And in the case of Totality, ...........apart from running them, ..
...is ALSO the very apparatuses, ...."so" expressed.
The objective expressions of the electricity,.....
..... is the vibrator and the refrigerator,
whose subjective essence is the animating energy.
Now reading these squiggly signs on a PC screen,.....
....the me-Ravi immediately jumps up
and asks who is doing that witnessing in the witnessing gestalt.
All questions of a "who", only arise to a "me" .
Use any term for the "who"
Bozo the Clown is as good a term as Consciousness.
Each manifest "object", whether a silly stone lying in the rain,
or a struggling artist
desperately anguishing to express THAT painting, .....
.....whether a clerk in an organization,
or one which popular media has labeled as a "sage", ...
......whether a humping cat on a tin-roof
or an exploding Super-Nova with the brilliance of a million suns...
.....each is a singing, ........
......being uniquely sung.
You are not a person Ravi.
There are no persons as static discrete events.
You are a "particular" process, getting enacted out.
There are no static discrete events.
There is a seamless "eventing", ....
.....with infinite nuances,
all of which mesh together in a fantastic harmony,.....
.... to produce a symphony of infinite proportions.
If the eluding is truly apperceived,....
.... which can only be in the instant,....
.....the immediate consequence is the freedom from the very concept of freedom, .......
.....from the very concept of liberation.
And thus goes out of the window,.....
...the whole basket of suffering, anxiety, dread, insecurity, yearning, agendas, stakes.....
......all chasing, ......
Neither freedom, neither liberation,
neither enlightenment (and it's so called various stages),.....
...none of all this
is of any relevance to the psycho-somatic apparatus.
Not because it knows it is free, but because,.....
... it being "wired" only for survival and for perpetuation,....
.......freedom/bondage has no relevance to the instrument.
The instrument, which is truly an instrument of functioning, ...
....emerged from a pair of hip-hopping sperm and ovum, the essence of both being,.
.. the food ingested.
The essence of all food are the fundamental elements of nature.
And at the "death" of the instrument,
either through cremation,
or being fed to the vultures (if the prevailing ethos was the Zoroastrian faith), .........
...the instrument merges back into the elements from
which it emerged.
Dust to Dust, says it all.
And since the eluding of this seamless symphonic mosaic, ......
....has occurred as a very nuance of the same seamless symphonic mosaic,........
.....the eluding can only be ........